I’m not sure why You take such delight in me, but if for this very reason alone, I will delight in my weaknesses, in the insults, the hardships, in the persecutions, and the difficulties, knowing that in these moments I sense Your most perfect strength, and I know that You are with me.

It is in or by grace that we have our acceptance

. God has made us accepted, we did not attain to it by any volition or works of ourselves. Only those in the Beloved qualify for this great blessing. (http://believer.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=206&Itemid=529)

For the word of God is instinct with life; it is effective; it is sharper than a two-edged sword; it pierces right through to the very division of soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it scrutinizes the desires and intentions of the heart (Barclay)

The call of God is not a reflection of my nature; my personal desires and temperament are of no consideration. As long as I dwell on my own qualities and traits and think about what I am suited for, I will never hear the call of God.

by the "strength" of Christ is meant, not his strength as the mighty God...

The Lord always hears and answers his people sooner or later, in one form or another, though not always in the way and manner they desire; but yet in such a way as is most for his glory and their good: the apostle had not his request granted, that Satan might immediately depart from him, only he is assured of a sufficiency of grace to support him under the exercise, so long as it should last.

because he concludes his deliverance to be as good as wrought...

In prayer faith is encouraged, through believing the heart is filled with joy; and this joy is expressed by the lips, in songs of praise to the Lord, ascribing the glory of salvation to him, and giving him thanks for every mercy and blessing of life; ...

To discourage and hopefully banish that disposition !

We Must Wait on the Lord. This was his heart for God... 

Isaiah gave them these words (Isa. 40:27-31).

GOD is AWARE,  ABLE & AVAILABLE -  there is only one place you can find the healing you seek. The wounds of suffering, grief and death can reach deep into the soul. And it may seem like a
tremendous burden, at the moment. But if you have a Biblical understanding of the everlasting God, you can find the healing you seek.

This was his heart for God...

  

In view of what God promised David, there must be a great King coming. History shows
that God blessed all of David's descendants who followed Him faithfully—in proportion
to their obedience. Q? How do you feel when you give in to temptation?



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21 To fulfil the word of the LORD by the mouth of Jeremiah, until the land had enjoyed her sabbaths: for as long as she lay desolate she kept sabbath, to fulfil threescore and ten years.

Sabbaths — Had rested from the labour of the husbandman in plowing and harrowing it; the people that should have managed it being destroyed.

God saved you by his special favor when you believed.

For by the grace have you been saved in time past completely, through faith, with the result that your salvation persists through present time; and this is not from you as a source; of God it is the gift, not from a source of works

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From: Abey Mathew [mailto:abeysmail@gmail.com]
Sent: Sunday, February 12, 2012 23:35
To: Jean Mathew
Subject: Words of comfort and Hope fro Sadhu

Dear Brother Jean,
Writing this in the hope that you have enough energy and easy access to your email.

I have spent much time today and past several day.. going through your thoughts and photos..
Shared with my family and Sunday school class, church and some fellow believers.

We've been praying for you fervently - in personal, family, fellowship and Church prayer time..
There is no doubt that , God's Glory is revealed and lifted up through your life until this moment in ways we did not imagine.
And we can be assured , His Glory will be multiplied will be multiplied in the coming days .
Though the ways and pace are unknown to us, the final result we are very sure.. Complete Absolute Healing,


There is nothing to add to what you have written, picked and quoted elsewhere in last several weeks and months..
I regret that I did not take time to have dedicated conversation times and exchanges with you.. It would have enriched me much..

The validity and verification of faith and trust.. by someone who goes through trials is very different from the majority of us..
Let me paste some lines from those have known such experiences and expressed their trust and hope in such times..

Like a river glorious, is God’s perfect peace,
Over all victorious, in its bright increase;
Perfect, yet it floweth, fuller every day,
Perfect, yet it groweth, deeper all the way.

Stayed upon Jehovah, hearts are fully blest
Finding, as He promised, perfect peace and rest.

Every joy or trial falleth from above,
Traced upon our dial by the Sun of Love;
We may trust Him fully all for us to do.
They who trust Him wholly find Him wholly true.

എന്റെ ദൈവം മഹത്വത്തിൽ ആർദ്രവാനായി ജീവിക്കുമ്പോൾ
സാധു ഞാനീ ക്ഷോണിതന്നിൽ ക്ലേശിപ്പാൻ-
ഏതും കാര്യമില്ലെന്നെന്റെയുള്ളം ചൊല്ലുന്നു

വൈഷമ്യമുള്ളേതു കുന്നും കരകേറി നടകൊള്വാൻ
രക്ഷകനെൻ കാലുകൾക്കു് വേഗമായ് തീർന്നെൻ
പാതയിൽ ഞാൻ മാനിനെപ്പോലോടിടും

ആരുമെനിക്കില്ലെന്നോ ഞാൻ ഏകനായി തീർന്നുവെന്നോ
മാനസത്തിലാധിപൂണ്ടു ഖേദിപ്പാൻ
സാധു അന്ധനായി തീർ‌ന്നിടല്ലേ ദൈവമേ

എന്റെ നിത്യ സ്നേഹിതന്മാർ ദൈവദൂതസംഘമത്രേ
ഇപ്പോളവർ ദൈവമുമ്പിൽ സേവയാം
എന്നെ കാവൽ ചെയ്തു ശുശ്രൂഷിപ്പാൻ വന്നീടും


ദുഃഖിതനായ് ഓടിപ്പോയ് ഞാൻ മരുഭൂവിൽ കിടന്നാലും
എന്നെയോർ‌ത്തു ദൈവദൂതർ വന്നീടും
ഏറ്റം സ്നേഹചൂടോടപ്പവുമായ് വന്നീടും


നാളെയെക്കൊണ്ടെൻ മനസ്സിൽ ലവലേശം ഭാരമില്ല
ഓരോ നാളും ദൈവമെന്നെ പോറ്റുന്നു
തന്റെ കൈകളിൽ ഞാൻ ദിനം തോറും ചാരുന്നു

കാക്കകളെ വിചാരിപ്പിൻ വിതയില്ല കൊയ്ത്തുമില്ല
ദൈവം അവയ്ക്കായ് വേണ്ടതേകുന്നു
ലില്ലി പുഷ്പങ്ങൾക്കുമവൻ ശോഭ നൽകുന്നു

പത്മോസ് ദ്വീപിൽ ഏകനായ് ഞാൻ വസിച്ചാലും ഭയമില്ല
സ്വർഗ്ഗം തുറന്നെന്റെ പ്രിയൻ വന്നീടും
മഹാദർശനത്താൽ വിവശനായ്ത്തീരും ഞാൻ

ഹാ! മഹേശാ! കരുണേശാ! പൊന്നുതാതാ! നീയെനിക്കായ്
വേണ്ടതെല്ലാം ദയ തോന്നി നൽകുമ്പോൾ
എന്റെ ദേഹി വൃഥാ കലങ്ങുന്നതെന്തിനായ്

...With brotherly love and earnest prayers

Abey
( STECI- Queens Parish, NY )

(PRAYER)

Lord … God …

These are the little things that we can do in our life for others ; as a return for what all God has done to all of us...

What We Believe - Trust

Jesus Christ, 

Father God, give us ears to hear Your promptings to intercede and the will to obey.

Amen.

(Book: Gift, Merin) God's Healing Words by Siloam, Siloam Authors

(CD: Gift, Nancy) MARK SCHULTZ LAUNCHES “THE RENAISSANCE TOUR” WITH JASON GRAY AND DAVID KLINKENBERG ON MARCH 10^TH

God Family Love ...relax meditation

Alex Amma – Leya, Anns Joseph, Anuj Mathew Thomas, Biji John, Binta Balan, Elsie Pius, Georgekutty Scariah, Girish Kodi, Jaico Thomas, Jeethu Anuj Mathew, Jinu George, Jiss Fransis, Kanu Aravind, Mathai Alex, Merin, Merin Paul,  Neema, Nitesh Naveen, Pius, Reno Varghese, Roopa Thomas Achan Rev, Elsie Pius, Georgekutty Scariah,  Girish Kodi, Jaico Thomas, Merin, Merin Paul, Neema, Nitesh Naveen, Pius, Reno Varghese, Tennyson Thomas Thakidiyil, Thomas Achan Rev, Dr. Soma, John, …(Show fewer)

Dreams 48hr – 20Fri (00:00hr) – 22Sun (06:45hr)

[God + Human + Brain + My Dreams ] (ask Amma - mom)

2012 Jan……..01-03..04-14…15-19…20..23…

My BLEED’s Dreams  : Praxis tasks, fine motor skills, and less word finding abilities... Automatics, numbers, days, months, singing, dysfluency and expressive language skills ... well as well as the worsening of the speech difficulties…

Sort , Common missing , Dizziness and  Dreams + Real

Aphasia Loss of language

Apraxia Lost of praxis motor planning

Antonia Loss of names

Coediting automatics opposites sequence…123/mon-tue-wed/jan-feb-mar etc..

Nothing Will Be Impossible (Luke 1:37)

o    Start 10:30pm 23/jan/2012, now

o    now 11:20

o    now 11:45 edit - start type…

o    now 24/jan/2012 02:30…

o    End

Sun 1/1/2012 02:50 AM… events ….

Jan 1: ER CDH MRI (Called)

ü  1 Jan 0250 Mail

o    Girsh

o    John L Villano

o    Marko

o    Annie

o    Acha 640p

o    Jeethu 7p

ü  Call

o    Nitesh

ü   

ü  1 Jan : PAIN – 3 pill day Vicodin …

ü  2 Jan : PAIN – 1 pill day Vicodin …

ü   

ü   

Jan 3: ER UIC MRI

ü  3Jan 0700 Mail

ü  No email…

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    Nitesh

ü  3 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin …

subdural collection with reduced contrast enhancement with focal areas of cavitations that also appear to decreased in size. These effects may be due to the Avastin. Edema surrounding the surgical bed shows interval worsening with increasing mass effect an adjacent structures. Concern in raised that this increased edema may be producing the mass effect causing pain on the adjacent dura as well as well as the worsening of the speech difficulties…

 

MRI Report: 01/03/2012 , 12/01/2011 and dating back to 03/01/2008 ...

Multiple resections 19 Mar 2008, 19 Aug 2010 … Left front parietal craniotomy

Glioblastoma 3rd and Astrocytoma 1st / 2nd Anaplastic (Malignant, High Grade, III)

Now 3 cycles Avastin (8 Dec 2011)

Jan 4-14

ü  8Jan 0800 Mail

o    ProCure (CDH Proton)

o    Inna (NorthShore)

o    Jiss 1/11

o    Anns

ü  4 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin …

ü  5 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin …

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    Elsie

ü   

ü  6 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin …

ü  7 Jan : NO PAIN

ü  8 Jan : PAIN – 4 pill days Vicodin …

ü  9 Jan : PAIN – 2 pill days Vicodin …

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    Elsie

ü  10 Jan : PAIN – 1 pill days Vicodin …

ü  11 Jan : PAIN – 2 pill days Vicodin …

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    Elsie

ü  12 Jan : PAIN – 4 pill days Vicodin …

Dr. Ayers office called and I have set up an appointment to see him on Friday January 27th @ CDH. I will have my next Avastin treatment at UIC on January 25th 2011. After I see Dr. Ayers on the 27th Jay 2011, they will set up my Avastin treatment at CDH Cancer Center.

ü  13 Jan : PAIN – 2 pill days Vicodin …

ü  13Jan : DEXAMETHASONE – 13Jan 6pm …

ü  14 Jan : NO PAIN

ü   

Jan 15-19

ü  15Jan 0250 Mail

o    Shyam

o    11am - Medical Details 2012 -16Jan – Inna, John, Soma

o     

o    16Jan 2p, - Acha – George & Me (mail)

o    18Jan Jeby – car

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    George

o    Nitesh

ü   

ü  15Jan NO PAIN

ü  16Jan NO PAIN

Met with Dr. Sweeney at CDH ProtonCure. Mock session and marking the site for radiation therapy on Mon 23’ Jan for ProCure Proton Therapy. They are trying to get approval from my insurance for the proton therapy. The financial advisor stated that all information has been submitted to my insurance today (Jan 19th - Jocelin – 630-821-6384) and it should take 1-2 weeks before I hear anything from them. My insurance is out of network and they are trying to get approval for in network and that is why it is taking time for approval.

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    Elsie

ü  17Jan NO PAIN, SEIZURES 2am, 3-5min, 1.0mg , ASTHMA - 6-5 puff

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    Elsie

ü  18Jan NO PAIN, SEIZURES 2am, 3-5min, 1.0mg , ASTHMA - 4-5 puff

Yesterday and today morning have wheezing & difficulty breathing... I have seizure 17 Jan'11 - last 5 min. I take Lorazepam 1 mg. Yesterday and today i try buttoning, putting on watches, week right.

I met Dr. Herbert Engelhard, University of Illinois Hospital in Chicago and have been approved trial case. NovoCure "Novo TTF" (TTF stands for "tumor-treating fields"). NovoCure training session will be on Thursday January 26th. An MRI will be done for the trial every 2 month at UIC.

ü  19Jan NO PAIN, SEIZURES 2am, 3-5min, 0.5mg, ASTHMA - 2 puff…

 

Saw Andria Baumgartner- Speech Language Pathologist (CDH): Recommends skill therapy services- to focus on fill in sentences for word recall, and increase expressive language skill. She will fax you the notes from my visit. – Praxis tasks, buttoning, putting on watches, and fine motor skills, and less word finding abilities. Activity work: automatics, numbers, days, months, singing.

Goal: progressing and improvement and phoneme cues, less dysfluency.

Plan: focus on automatics, fill in sentences for work recall, breath support to show rate, and increase expressive language skills.

Jun 20  : Dreams? 11pm to 4am morning? Musical like ... Renaissance! Awake. or read meditation ... or "God healing words spokes through His word".

ü  Mail

o     Shyam – CD and Med Rec

o    Elsie

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    George

ü  20Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA

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Jan 21-22 ...

ü  Mail

o    Shyam

o    Nitesh

o    Elsie

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    George

o    Nitesh

ü   

ü  21Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA

ü  22Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA

ü  8 to 1 pm : PRAYER, Read, Music 

ü  11:45 amma…

ü  11:30 ... sleepless 

ü  1am -5am: PRAYER, Read, Music 

ü  10:10 pm u+

ü   

NO PAIN, NO SEIZURES, NO ASTHMA - HAPPY ... 2HR NAP [1-3PM] SOUND :-)

22Jan:

ü  Mail

o     Elsie

o     

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o    George

o    Nitesh

ü   

ü  22Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA

ü  300 pm :-) Sound nap

ü  800 pm … Music 

ü   

ü  200 am :) PRAYER, Read, Music 

ü  3:00 u+ ... Amma...

ü  2:00 Amma ... 

ü  1:10 u+

ü  Nap

ü  06:45 – Photo – Cat

ü  06:50 - Lynda Blue , mail – I call –

ü  07:20 - Church

Luke 1:37 ... I fell strong :) ... God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!

God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!

23Jan: Green Flag :) just came home ... Insurance say "OK" ... Mock session and marking done.

ü  Mail

o     Shyam

o     

ü  Call

o    Shyam

o     

ü   

ü  23Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA

ü   

ü  3:00 u+ ... Amma...

ü  2:00 Amma ... 

ü  1:10 u+  

ü   

ü  0800pm: Nap (prayer , Amma+ Uncle + Aunty +ME)

ü  I tired…

ü  1035pm: watch time

• Praying With Confidence – 2012 Jan 25
• 1.    Praying
• 2.    Edit Photo
• 3.    Nap
• 4.    Call to Dad & Mom Family…
• 5.    Breakfast
• 6.    Mom and Ucpe
• 7.    Call my friends Shaym, Jiss, Kaur, Binta(miss), Anns(miss), Merig(voice), ,   – to UIC way
• 8.    SP- UIC
• 9.    UIC – Report Med Rec
• 10.  Last Infusion Chemotherapy Avastin @ UIC Oncology Center ...Move to CDH
• 11.  CH star
• 12.  Stated
• 13.  I nap – 2 hr
• 14.  Neurosurgery – ne/dr see my see
• 15.  Dr appt – Avatin .. 4 clycs … Pray !
• 16.  Oncology - dr/nr see my see
• 17.  Uncle drive
• 18.  1 hr nap
• 19.  Call to Dad
• 20.  Ca my Sis
• 21.  CVS
• 22.  Annie call and home
• 23.  Kid & Aunt
• 24.  I nap
• 25.  Diner
• 26.  My Blog J
• 27.  Pray
• 28.  Good Day

Dream or Real: Awesome day...

Chemotherapy Avastin (CDH) + Novocure (clinical trial -UIC) + ProCure & Chemotherapy TMZ (ProCure CDH)

Praxis tasks, fine motor skills, and less word finding abilities... Automatics, numbers, days, months, singing, dysfluency and expressive language skills ...

             

Sort , Common missing , Dizziness and

Aphasia

Loss of language

Apraxia

Lost of praxis motor planning

Antonia

Loss of names

Coediting automatics opposites sequence

123/mon-tue-wed/jan-feb-mar etc..

Dream or Real : Awesome day...

Nothing Will Be Impossible (Luke 1:37)

Jen 20 : Dreams? 11pm to 4am morning? Musical like ... Renaissance! Awake. or read meditation ... or "God healing words spokes through His word".

Last 5 days ... seizures, pain, asthma...

 

Jan 21-22 ...

no pain, no seizures - happy ... 2hr nap [1-3pm] sound :-)

Luke 1:37 ... I fell strong :) ... God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!

God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!

... no pain, no seizures - happy ... 2hr nap [1-3pm] sound :-)

23Jan: Green Flag :) just came home ... Insurance say "OK" ... Mock session and marking done.

 Infusion Chemotherapy Avastin @ UIC Oncology Center ...

Dr.John and team .. 4Year ...!  Neurosurgery team nurse…

 

Luke 1:37 ... I fell strong :) ... God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!

Wednesday January 25, 2012

Praying With Confidence

Lord … God …

These are the little things that we can do in our life for others ; as a return for what all God has done to all of us...

What We Believe - Trust

Jesus Christ,  Father God, give us ears to hear Your promptings to intercede and the will to obey. Amen.

Amen

Chemotherapy Avastin (CDH) + Novocure (clinical trial -UIC) + ProCure & Chemotherapy TMZ (ProCure CDH)

Praxis tasks, fine motor skills, and less word finding abilities... Automatics, numbers, days, months, singing, dysfluency and expressive language skills ... Sort , Common missing , Dizziness and Coediting automatics opposites sequence

123/mon-tue-wed/jan-feb-mar etc…

Nothing Will Be Impossible!

Luke 1:37 For with God nothing shall be impossible.

... I fell strong :) ...

God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!

Do not be afraid - I am with you! (Isaiah 43.1-5)

I am prayer for U ...Upholding you in the everlasting arms of a God for whom all things are possible.

So ... sure 100% ....

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JEAN MATHEW 06/06/1981